I know that God lives, and I know that he is not unaware of us. I know that He likes to answer our prayers, but sometimes we need to suffer just a little bit longer till we can feel the big difference.

I haven't really had the best week ever this past week. Things have been a bit harder and I haven't felt so much love and peace of mind, kind of like I don't have a purpose here.

I've been praying a lot to just feel it and haven't felt so much of answers to my prayers either!

Yesterday, before church, I had a really specific prayer of something I wanted answered and then we went to church, I started to feel a bit more peace in my heart but still a little troubled. Then, we had a lesson with Danitza, and we were talking about the commandments and specifically about the commandment to pray, Danitza specifically answered my prayer, word for word, I truly was amazed in a calm way. By the way Danitza is doing really good, she´ll be baptized soon!

Then, at the end of the day, for whatever reason, I still had this continued feeling of unsureness and unconfident in myself. With many, many, I mean like 6 billion prayers in a day, finally, just today, just 10 minutes ago, this random kind of odd guy came and sat by me, asked me if I was from Spain (I get that a lot here haha) and then I said no and that I'm from the US he started talking about all the things that he thinks are way better in the US yet he hasn't even been, and I felt bad that he didn't see the light in his own country, so I then asked him to tell me 10 things that he does like about Bolivia and it actually helped me even to see the light about this place. I've really just been having a hard time, but its part of the mission. Whatever missionary ever told you that everyday on their mission is so amazing and happy, they lied.

There will be hard days in this time, especially cause I'm trying to be a disciple of Jesus Christ, the life of Christ never was easy, why should I ever think that all my days should be happy bliss!

Anyways, he started to ask me a ton of questions, that really made me think harder about where I am in my thoughts and I just testified to him of the things I knew, and I myself was strengthened.

Hang in there, this life isn't easy. Nor will it ever, be especially being a member of the church of Jesus Christ.
There shall arise false prophets who will deceive even the elect who have died spiritually.
p.s.
He just came over to tell me: "you are beautiful" in his broken english, and then he asked me what it means. so I told him it means "You're a pig" hahahahahahah love languages I should probably tell him it doesn't really mean that haha

Have a good week I love you all so much!